You were close to never seeing this post…
After I finished writing the last draft of this piece the Enemy showed up, to tempt me. I believe his intent was to demoralize me so I wouldn’t post this writing. The temptation indeed entangled me at first, but as I talked to God, He reminded me the words He gave me to write as an encouragement to you, was also an encouragement to me.
When the Enemy knocks on your door, it’s for a reason. Why does he care if you read this? The truth is powerful. When we as women take hold of and act on the Truth, the world changes, one household at a time.
Below is my original writing.
I’ve always had self-control issues…lately candida is my excuse. I put a lot of time and effort into eating healthy. I’ve bought into the lifestyle of “food is my medicine” and I’m reaping benefits.
Then, I cheat. Do you struggle with temptation? I’d like to think I’m not alone.
I’ll eat something I know will inflame my gut because my gut isn’t fully healed. Why do I do that!? Not sure if you’ve noticed from my recent blog posts, but this has been an ongoing battle. Turns out, my problem wasn’t what I thought it was and it took a chat with a friend to uncover it.
If I’ve not already mentioned this, I suffer from Leaky Gut, here’s an overview by Dr. Josh Axe. Basically, ALL of that is happening to me, and requires an elimination diet. So taking care of, and healing, my body is tantamount to my ability to function…like…at all.
The Enemy knows this.
I know he knows this. So why is he able to tempt me and I crumple like a punk and proceed to stuff my face? Y’all have no idea how frustrating and angry this has been making me.
Seriously, I’m a grown woman! I can’t control what I put in my face!?
I’m a glutton. Doggone it! How many self-help groups does one woman need to have, first sugar crack and now gluttony?! UGH!
And, yes, I prayed.
I prayed every time the pizza guy showed up at our house for everybody in it, but me. I haven’t had one slice of pizza since September 2015. Then in February 2016 I took a food sensitivity test (this tests the antibody IgG). Wouldn’t you know it, I was sensitive to all my favorite foods.
Here’s a list of just a few of the foods I must avoid:
- Flax seeds
- the list goes on
Because of the candida, added sugar of any kind (maple syrup, honey, agave, cane sugar, etc.) was also off-limits.
For crying out loud! Can’t a girl have something good to eat!?
For over 2 years now I’ve followed this strict elimination diet so my gut could heal, except for the sugar avoidance. I significantly lowered my sugar intake and saw outstanding results after about a year (praise the Lord!) but there’s this stumbling block.
I just couldn’t completely give sugar up…
Sugar avoidance is important because candida has to be starved out. Zero sugar and carbs means my body can be rid of this unwanted resident.
Why can I defeat seemingly everything else but this one, stinking, thing? I began writing down Scripture.
So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall! No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it. 1 Cor. 10:12-13 NIV
But I couldn’t find my way! Where was God?
My friend, who by the way is training to be a life coach, helped me dig around inside my head and figure out what my problem REALLY was…
…be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will. Rom. 12:2b NIV
So my battle isn’t with candida or cravings or weakness, it’s what I’m thinking and my internal dialogue?
Back up one verse to Romans 12:1. My answer was RIGHT THERE!
Therefore I urge you, brothers, on account of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God, which is your spiritual service of worship. NIV (emphasis mine)
That verse embodies why we can overcome our struggle.
As Christians, we should be walking in joy, peace, love AND self-control – every day!
Defeat comes from within, it is not external. No one, not your boss, husband, finances or even cravings control you to the degree that, if you are a Christian, you are without victory. The Enemy is defeated! Own that gift!
If today, you feel defeated AND you are a Christian, know that’s a choice to not claim victory over sin through Christ.
Below are a few questions to ask yourself as you search for your stumbling block and reach for the goal of becoming a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God.
- Emotional eating. When you are lonely, sad, bored, angry, stressed, anxious, restless, whatever…do you tend to make poor food choices? Sugar, dairy and carbs actually stimulate the pleasure center in our brains. We feel eating will fix our feelings but that good feeling lasts about as long as it takes you to swallow your food.
- Reward eating. Do you use food as a reward or motivation? We moms do this to our kids sometimes, but truthfully it leads to more problems than it fixes.
- Excuses. Do you find you make excuses for why it’s okay to eat what you know won’t nourish your body? This was part of my struggle. I kept telling myself that it isn’t a sin to eat sugar. Of course it isn’t. But damaging my body and making it too sick to serve God is disobedience. Disobedience is sin.
Pick up your Bible. Read it. Study it. Borrow a Bible study. Dig deep with God to find out what’s stopping YOU from claiming that victory and becoming a living, holy and pleasing sacrifice to God, so He can use YOU to serve His Kingdom!
Here’s a short list of some of my recent favorites:
- Kingdom Woman by Dr. Tony Evans
- Fervent by Priscilla Shirer
- Uninvited by Lysa TerKeurst
- Lies Women Believe by Nancy Leigh DeMoss
The Enemy does not want you victorious. But…